The less you know about sex the better a Mormon you are. A woman’s best virtue is her virginity. Abstain until you’re married, and then it’s a commandment. Mormon babies! Even then a part of me knew there was something wrong with sex in the church. I once had a young man confide in me that he had Pornography “Addiction”. He looked at it once every year or 6 months. Inside I was like “I don’t care.” However, I knew if I didn’t chastise him I would not be a good Mormon so I put him through hell. I dated this young man for quite a while. He had one girlfriend before me. They were together for 4 years but they never kissed any more than a peck. The first time we made out I blew his mind. He was so amazed it was really all he wanted to do and that made me feel just fine.
My little sister is getting married soon. Wedding nights are notoriously awkward for Mormon brides. I can’t tell you how many stories I have heard about woman crying in the bathroom before or after sex. One girl actually called her mom from the shower screaming about how terrible it was. I always knew I would be different…right?
About a week ago I started getting some hands on Sex ED lessons from an attractive man from down the street. I realized I really don’t understand "S". He was very patient with me but he promptly stopped texting me after our last date. Might have had something to do with me running into the bathroom when he took off my underwear. I was grateful for the experience. however, He deserves a woman who can pull of more advance sex moves like being completely naked. One day when I was supposed to be at church he took me to a sex shop. I wanted get a gift for my little sister who is the world to me. If you read my post Life or Death you will remember I owe her my life. I just hate that she is embarking on something that I know nothing about. I have always tried to protect my little sister. She is the Primrose to my Katniss.
The night before my sister wedding in the temple I gave her my sexy gift. I bought it to embarrass her yes, but also to help educate her as I’m still a virgin.(and apparently will be for life) It’s was fun. We all enjoyed making her blush. Then there came an uncomfortable moment. My parents wanted to give her a blessing. I was still teasing her about the honeymoon. I don’t remember how it happened, but yet again I turned into the bad guy. Story of my life. I was chastised and I had to leave the room while they gave her the blessing. My eyes filled with tears. Sex is not a bad thing. I just want her I know what I can’t teach her. She came out and saw me crying. She gave me a hug and privately thanked me for the gift.
With tears in my eyes I cried innocently,“I just want you to have good Sex.”