You are going all in. Your palms are sweaty, your mouth is dry. Why are these three little words so hard to say? It’s silent. Their eyes anticipating as the letters rock from one side of your mouth to the other. Like a sea sick sailor it’s time to spill... “I don’t believe”
There is one thing every single post-Mormon must face. Telling people. You can’t hide it. Once you pick up a beer, or ware a tube top, or move in with your boyfriend the word is out. You imagine all the things people will say about you. Probably the same things you said about those who left before you. Coming out is a big deal. Before you open the door to the closet, do a little IKEA style organization. There are thing you need to have in place mentally before you open yourself up to scrutiny. If you don’t clean the closet your baggage will spill everywhere and make a real mess of your life.
#1. Set up Your "PORTIS" There are so many different people from different walks of life. Put yourself in your friend’s and family’s shoes. They love you and they love the church. You need to do your best to make it possible for them to love you both. Avoid using words like “hate” “brainwashed” “cult” “indoctrinated”. Find people you can trust as your outlet.
#2 Sort out the rogue socks You may have a strong feeling of betrayal. Suddenly you just hate every darn thing about the church. Some things you used to love. Some ideas may still be good ideas but now you want to rebel. And some grudges that are highly exaggerated in your mind. You may, like me, just have crazy mouth (see: Gift of Tongues) It is wise to find those Ideas that are destructive and just throw them away. Like the red sock with green dotes. You will never ware it again in will just turn all your white socks pink.
#4 Organize your “BESTÅ” You may want to have a throw down with your friends or family. Tell them everything you learned. You may be thinking it’s not personal. Wrong! It is very personal. If it is a true friendship they will be able to Shelf the disagreement and focus on the person you are. Keep your copy of No Man Knows My History right where it is. When they pull out their Book of Mormon remind them that you already have one. If they try to argue with you simply don't. If they tell you "you will be punished" smile and nod. Some of your friends my earnestly want to know the history. With this I take a Que from Le Var Burton. I say, "Here are some other books you may like, but you don't have to take my word for it."
#3 Get a "HEMNES" with Closed Drawers Just because your closet is a walk in dose not mean anyone is welcome. You need to set up boundaries for yourself. You can leave out your Sunday Sailing hat but maybe tuck away your lacy lingerie with the front clasp. I'm not ashamed of my *cough* experiments. But I don't feel a need to share with my relief society friends exactly who has been vacuuming my shag carpet. It is no one business what you do. You decided to Whom, exactly When, and precisely What you want them to know.
I’m no expert. I’m just a 27 yr old girl with an optimistic attitude and a concussion. Start by telling your closest friends. People who you trust like family. Recognize that the dynamics with your friends may change. It is not because they don’t like you, but because you may not be able to relate as well. It’s times like these when you find out who your real friends are. Wheather you have lost your religion or lost your car to a Buick going 45 mph, your friends are the ones who come over with a bowl of soup and a big ass hug.